Why is it so hard to say I want you
When it was all our eyes ever said?
What ever happened to all the whispers,
the grins, the sighs and kisses
What ever happened to us, just you and me?
I've thought about calling you too many times
Thought about holding you until the sun came up
But I keep failing all of my hearts true desires
Because I'm wondering if it's for the best
Yeah, I've been thinking about you again
Accompanied by another song that reminds me of you
Brings back all the memories
All the secret grins and secret fantasies
All of it sends me back to that black hell
That I fell so deeply in love with, that I wanted to spen
I've broken my heart so many times
That now there's nothing left to break
I live this life convincing myself I don't need you
And finally befriend the lonely darkness surrounding
I've cried my eyes out so many times
That now my eyes have completely dried up
I live on not feeling or accepting too much emotion
And only grin widely at the plastic things in life
I've thought this over, and over, and over again
That now my brain has given up on me
I live this life now, barely living at all
And finally realise how deep I am in love with you.
You muttered something about love
And I stopped still and stared
We both began to laugh at each other
While holding our hands to our hearts
I whispered something about 2am
And the world stopped still as you held me
We both yawned and looked above
Looked above to where our dreams lay sleeping
'Don't be silly,' you said with a grin
'We'll make it out of here alive, I can feel it'
I believed you and we held each others hands
But all I felt was the cold emptiness of our love
The vicious tears through my heart are evident
By the fact I'm slumped against the wall again
I'm staring at our lifeless forms across the floor
And suddenly s
Slight motion
Decaying devotion
Lost senses
Closed fences
Denying hearts
Further apart
The longest nights without you
grow longer by a thousand few
Hours leaking
Eyes peeking
Lips pursed
Regret nursed
Tension growing
Pulse slowing
How can I explain this place
When you won't look at my face?
Darkness companion
Rideless stallion
Foggy minds
Running blind
Love betrayed
Emotions estranged
We are at a loss now
All for nothing, I don't even know how.
Her plus me
We're like sunsets and champange
Seductive and intimately insane
With stolen glances
and surreal romances
We're like candy laced in poison
Her plus me
Their whispers tend to tear us down
With looks that penetrate the sound
Of our peace
Unwilling to cease
It's like we're trapped in cages
Her plus me
Both wide awake and dreaming
Well aware our ways are decieving
In your eyes
So we hide
Just so we can live the night
Her plus me
Open for your misinterpretations
In denial in your topic of conversation
Followed by shadows
Pierced by arrows
But in the end we still win over you.
Windswept whispers
Trembling hands
The pink underbelly to the clouds
smeared and blurred
across pale skies
Matching your eyes
No questions asking why
Lost in fantasy,
Lost in thought
The light is coming closer
The tunnels walls are widening
I look at you,
you look at me
And we're entangled
in everything
in anything
But there's no questions
Nothing to ask why
Nothing to hold onto
Fragile fingers interlace
Shallow breathing upon us
Heart of gold
Of all promises and security
Be mine
You are mine
And I am yours
Heart of gold, forever be mine
'Unknown'
She holds my hands in the exchange
a tiny spark seeks a want
Her eyes deep of sweetness and defiance
I hesitate just a moment longer
Her identity is unknown
But I could get to know her,
yeah, I could get to know her
Silver moonlit settings invade my mind
When her eyes devour me she sweetly smiles
Whispers concealed behind hands and obvious looks
I hesitate a moment longer then die
'Cos what she thinks is unknown
But I could get to know her
Please, let me get to know her
My horoscope told me I'll fall in love this week
She's far from me and I'm sweet talking a boy
But my mind suddenly slips
And I hesitate a moment l
I sit, I stare,
I sigh, I simper
'Oh, won't you let me have you?'
I say to our motionless prints
'won't you let me keep you forevermore,
and won't you let me whisper to you again?'
I wait, with abated breath, bottom lip chewed
And in reply, you say nothing
You just stare back at me, smiling
giggling, its stretched across your silly face
My fingertips, they run across the smoothness,
the perfection, of what I cannot have
And I close my eyes tight,
and hope that you'll save me, just tonight
Just for one night, won't you save me,
just for one night, just for tonight?
Your words, oh, your words
They run a course through me,
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Her plus me
We're like sunsets and champange
Seductive and intimately insane
With stolen glances
and surreal romances
We're like candy laced in poison
Her plus me
Their whispers tend to tear us down
With looks that penetrate the sound
Of our peace
Unwilling to cease
It's like we're trapped in cages
Her plus me
Both wide awake and dreaming
Well aware our ways are decieving
In your eyes
So we hide
Just so we can live the night
Her plus me
Open for your misinterpretations
In denial in your topic of conversation
Followed by shadows
Pierced by arrows
But in the end we still win over you.
Current Residence: Sydney Favourite genre of music: *sigh* I don't have one. ;) Favourite photographer: Mariko Mori Favourite style of art: Textual MP3 player of choice: iPod Wallpaper of choice: Sir Integra Hellsing Favourite cartoon character: Lady Eboshi, Sir Integra Hellsing (the perfect kind of women) ;) Personal Quote: "Love is not defined by age or gender."
Favourite Visual Artist
Jenny Holzer
Favourite Movies
Princess Mononoke, Hero, Sin City, Kill Bill vol. 1, Moulin Rogue & most Studio Ghibli movies ;D
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Nelly Furtado (old skool), Architecture In Helsinki, Cold War Kids
So I'm getting some kind of zing back in certain things I'm doing.. Perhaps it's because of my somewhat forced nocturnal patterns, which cause me to be awake until 5am. I prefer it that way big time, so I'm not complaining. It's just so much fun, is all! I'm putting my photographic works on hold, as I have recently been dwelling on improving my drawings and writing. But none-the-less I maybe will still do some photographic works.. just more so in the majority with the mediums of drawing and writing.
..So.. wanna hold hands and dance alongside a merry-go-round??
Soo lately.. I've decided to explore into the medium of photography to express myself (with thanks to Pete).. I'm starting off simple ideas and with simple equipment, because as of yet I don't have wicked awesome equpiment.
I will be using text with my photos, but text RULES. But yes.. ahh can't think, too excited.
Okay, so it's evident that I haven't been keeping scratching up this page as well as I should've. Don't I suck? Ha well I am trying, none-the-less. So soon enough, I promise the lot of ye, that I will have more pieces of writing up, even some drawings and photographs. Ok? Okay. Done.